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Text: You With Your Memory Are Dead
Author: Gary J. Shipley
Publisher: Inside the Castle
Plot: The shadow of an ape is formed and deformed and reformed gradually over the course of two weeks inside the looping guts of Begotten.
Subplot: The observer of the shadow of an ape is formed and deformed and reformed gradually over the course of the hundred and eleven hours they spend continuously reading and/or writing about the text of the shadow of an ape.
Sub-subplot: Trapped in a state of infinite usage-stroke-exhaustion, ‘feels like’ and ‘I don’t know’ join forces with a jaded ‘or does it’ to find a way out.
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You With Your Memory Are Dead [YWYMAD from this point on] opens with the following quote card:
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‘Like a flame burning aw- the darkness
Life is flesh on bone co- ulsing above the ground’
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The two hyphenated words in the middle are interrupted by the tightness of the inner spine fold. I didn’t know, or didn’t remember, that Begotten opens [not ‘opened’, it’s eternal] with the same quote when I started reading so I tried to fill in the [anti-] spaces. These were my notes:
‘aw’ is either ‘away’, ‘awash’, ‘awful’, ‘awol’, ‘awkward’, ‘awkwafina’, ‘awe’ or ‘aws console.’
‘co- ulsing’ must be ‘convulsing.’
Why the tight inner spine?
Accident, or an attempt to make this unconvincingly unfamiliar?
You think you know Begotten…
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The preface, written by the director of Begotten, E. Elias Merhige, tells us that Gary’s plan was to make the film his own by sitting in a room for two weeks and watching it on loop.
A bit random to drag this in, but it reminds me of Orwell and his stipend whenever things got a little too tough. He did work the dish-washing jobs he said he did, but he was never in danger of being poor. I mean, can you ever truly be absorbed into a thing that is not innately inherently you?
I wouldn’t do the Begotten plan, even with something I adore, e.g. DS9, so it is definitely a feat of endurance.
Parameters?
The only breaks allowed, according to the preface, were for meals and sleep, and, I assume, trips to the toilet.
Is that accurate?
Did Gary’s eyes have to stay on Begotten at all times?
Could they look at the wall nearby?
Would a fainter version of Begotten be playing there too?
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